Tuesday, May 31, 2011

Lately...






I spend my Memorial Day weekend with this little guy. We had a blast! We never really got out of our pjs and we spent most of our days watching Yo Gabba Gabba, playing with his cars, drinking juice, filling juice cups, snacks, filling snacks, and snuggling. Now I'm back at work, but I have Friday off.

Jack is having his tubes placed on Saturday morning. We have pre-op to go to on Friday. My mom is coming on Thursday. We will be busy but I'll be taking a ton of photos via my iPhone. I usually post them to Instagram (amanda_smith).

I hope everyone had a great weekend!

Sunday, May 29, 2011

Today....

I know I just did a "This Weekend..." post about what we are doing but I have a lot to do today. I feel if I share my to-do list I am more accountable for it! Sooooooo......




- laundry
- clean bathrooms
- vacuum
- clean out fridge
- clean out Jack's closet
- set up "closet clean out" shoo
- give sophie a bath
- cook dinner
- start hospital bag
- outfit photos
- schedule blog posts

There is a lot of cuddling, pool time, chalk time, snacks, juice refills, and little walks added to that long list. :)

Happy Sunday!

Saturday, May 28, 2011

This weekend....







This weekend is for:

- getting ready for my mom to come visit!!!
( I miss my mom so much all the time! I cannot wait for her to get here! She hasn't been feeling so well, so I'm hoping she's feeling 100% by the time she has to drive 9+ hours to us. She rocks. )

- getting stuff together for Jack's little hospital visit
( his tubes go in on the 4th and pre-op is the day before. It should only take a few minutes to do the actual procedure but they have to sedate him & that freaks me out. )

- cleaning out my dirty car
( if I don't, my mom will have a cow when she gets in it! Ha! )

- attempting some [good] outfit photos
( I suck at this lately )

- lots of "pool" time for Jack

- sidewalk chalk

- lots of cuddles

- lots of movies watched & books read!
( Jack LOVED Gnomeo & Juliet!! )






Hope everyone has an amazing weekend! Mine is 3 days!!!!!!!

Wish List.

I haven't made a Wish List in a while. I love lists.



Ginger Brew Dress via ModCloth



Pink Floral Pillowcase top via VioletBella



Farfallette Headband // Aqua Aloe via GiantDwarf



no. 335 Triple Chevron Necklace via Mooreseal



Slices of Summer Watermelon Sugar Cookies via sugarandflour



Blue Quilted Flower Bow - Hand Painted Vintage Purse via Danny Brito


I could go on..... But I won't. :)

Wednesday, May 25, 2011

Socks!

Outfit! With SOCKS! Yes.





Dress: Target
Shoes: Bakers
Socks: old tights I DIYed into socks
Necklace: Gift from my mama

Saturday, May 21, 2011

May...

 My little man this time last year...




 He's growing up so fast! 

This May..







Such a big boy. 
:]

Tuesday, May 17, 2011

Monday, May 16, 2011

Working mother...

I am a working mother. I work full-time.

Sometimes I love it.

Sometimes I don't.

Sometimes I feel like I'm missing out on Jack's life and all his new things.

It breaks my heart every time I hear he does something new and I wasn't there. It breaks my heart when I think he's doing something new and I start talking about it with Jeremy or his mom and it's not new... He's been doing that for days/weeks.

Sometimes I wish I had a different job... one where I could be home more or at least closer to home. But I'm a chef. I found a job that let me work in the mornings and early afternoons. I'm lucky. I don't have to work at night... or late. I get to come home and put my baby to bed.

But I miss my mornings. I miss getting up when I hear a little voice start talking. I miss making breakfast for him. I miss seeing his beautiful smile when I walk in his room in the morning to get him out of his crib.

I miss all of that.

But I worked hard for my degree. I worked hard to know how to do what I do. I love what I do. I am a mother, but I am also a chef...

I know how hard it is for working mothers...especially new mothers. One day, I'll work while Jack's at school and I won't feel like I'm missing anything.

All that said... I miss... I MISS being home with Jack. One day, maybe I'll be able to again... until then.. I work.

:]

Sunday, May 15, 2011

Mom Style...

I wish I could dress up every day in a pretty dress that my closet is full of but I can't. I have to wear jeans and plain shirts. It's a surprise if I even put on a necklace. I wore this outfit or one close to it all weekend... I love it. It's comfy and cute. :]




 Shirt & Cardigan: Target
Jeans: AE
Shoes: Toms
Necklace: Gift from mom
Bag: Joes Totes

:]

Family Reunion...

Last weekend we had a family reunion in Whimberly, Texas.  It was pretty great to see all of my family together and it not be Christmas or Thanksgiving. Whimberly is a great little town with so many fun little shops and GREAT thrifting! I can't wait to go back.

It was a great time!!

Thursday, May 12, 2011

Still here...




We're still here...getting over a rough week last week.
- news about jack's hearing trouble/ears
- a wreck
- an ER visit at 9pm to 4am
- a stomach virus stricken husband
- short family reunion (so hard to say bye)
- news that my aunt is moving
- nothing really special for mother's day
- speech therapy appointments/meetings

Everyone is fine now and just catching up. Laundry is a beast that keeps growing. I wish the laundry/cleaning fairy godmother would step up for a day or two.

Now I'm off to work (it's 6:30am) and I'm hanging out with my aunt tonight then back to work!

I hope everyone is having a great week! I'll have more interesting posts soon. Updates on Jack too.

:)

Monday, May 2, 2011

Jackson's Ears...

My little man had a doctor's appointment today. He is still huge... 100% for head, weight, and height (since it's all the same % there is no need to panic that he's too big...blame Jeremy). He is right on track with everything...but speech. He doesn't say too many words or really tries to say many. He does say "bye" sometimes and he has said "outside" a few times, but it's all inconsistent. He's had an ear infection every single time we've gone into the doctor's office. When he's had a cold and we've taken him, he's ended up leaving with a RX for something for his ears. He has them all the time. So, according to the doctor, he can hear about 30-45% of what we say and what he can hear is muffled. He can't really pick up on pronouncing words. It makes sense, but it's heartbreaking. So, after today's visit, and yet ANOTHER ear infection, the doctor (and us) has decided that Jack needs tubes in his ears.

This is the first doctor's appointment that I missed. I had to work and there was no way out of it today. I can't believe I missed it. Today was a big deal. I've been beating myself up about it all day and I probably shouldn't, but I'm a mom and I can't help it. I am more afraid of the anesthesia. I can't picture my little sweet man in a hospital gown, with an IV, and being put to sleep. Actually, I can.. and I have been ALL DAY. It's terrifying. I know that tubes are that huge of a deal and that it's SO common.. but this is Jack. My Jack.

He has an appointment with the ear, nose, and throat doctor on the 24th to find out when they can place the tubes in. I will NOT miss that one.

Now I'm exhausted from worrying and crying off and on all day. I need to sleep and relax. I need to stop freaking out and know ( I do ) that the tubes will help him greatly. The 24th can't come fast enough.

This weekend will be relaxing and fun (I hope). I need it.

If anyone has any thoughts, or insight on this matter... please leave a comment or email me.
Amandamichelle_smith (at) yahoo (dot) com

Thanks!

Sunday, May 1, 2011

Arcade Fire!!!





 My date! :]


Sorry about all the iPhone photos! I wasn't allowed to take my camera in. 
It was amazing! SO AMAZING!!